your aftershave

There was just a little bit left of your Jean Paul Gaultier Classic Homme after you passed away, I need to smell your familiar smell so I ordered a new bottle for Valentines Day because that's what I would have done had you been here.   

It arrived yesterday
I sprayed today.
I feel you near me.

I remember the very first time I bought this for you, we had been dating just a few months and in fact, it probably was Valentines Day again in 2006.  If you know the JPG perfumes they come in a can, only I didn't know that you had to be really careful opening it..... as I twisted the can, it stuck and I pulled and the bottle flew out and thankfully landed on the carpet outside the bathroom door. 

​It flew a long way. 

We laughed and laughed.

From that moment on, you always wore it.

From that moment on, we always remembered me flinging the aftershave out the can.

Now it's my turn.

I did it r e a l l y c a r e f u l l y.

I miss you so much and wish you were here but I found your valentines card from last year. 

16 years on.

I love you.
Always.